Wednesday, December 18, 2002

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Ok...I really don't know what's going on. I'm sad/angry with myself. I'm talking to Bob, she says "stop being so hard on yourself." Yes. I need to. I will right that on my hand. Well, Bob figured it out. Anyways, I'm going back to yesterday. Well, it sucked. I thought I failed my precal test (I did way better than I thought). I really don't know what's happening to me. Something is going on. I think I need a break from everything. Oh man, Bob is great. I'm linking our convo.

Ok, I almost died yesterday too. It sucked. My mom and I were going to Irvine so I could get my hair cut. It's really long and crap. Anyway it was pouring, and we were late. So my mom is obviously in a hurry, well water is getting splased onto the windshield and she couldn't see, then she thought it would be a good idea to slam on the breaks. Well, she didn't slam that hard, or else we would have spun-out. Oh lord, thank you for life. That's why I was all blasé at my gtr lesson. I don't know. He said "I can't read your mind." So I told him how I almost cried at snack. I don't know. I really need to have some mental break down. It feels better if you just let it all out. The last time that happened was at batting practice with Evelyn. It was a few months ago. But I couldn't hit if my life depends on it. And that doesn't happen to me. That's never happened to me. I always do pretty well, but I was rolling my wrists, I was way out in front, and other stuff and I couldn't hit. Then I got frustrated with myslef and started to cry because this doesn't happen to Sara. It was a hard "transition time." I don't remember what was going on, but IB was and is always a bitch and then my sister was moving out, and other stuff. I don't know, but I came back and did well the next week, but I was horrible. That doesn't happen to me....

Yea, we worked on "Dust in the Wind" again. I learned the rest of it. Like, the main part, well, for the verse and stuff. I sorta feel like I've hit a plateau in my guitar life. Well, you know, you get better and better, and I feel like I'm leveling off. I really really need to do something with my song. I do not know what to do at all. I need to ask him. Well, I think I have chords for it. I need to play them for someone. Sammy thought it was cool, but...I don't know, she said the beginning sounds like "Knocking On Heaven's Door". It partially does, because it goes G Dm C, but that's really not what Knocking on Heaven's Door sounds like, well the 2nd part goes G D C, so it's similar, but I start out with the Dm. Whatever, she's dumb. JK JK.

Anyway, I guess Greg got another guitar. It's a re-issue of a '59 Les Paul. He showed me a picture. Very nice. He paid half of what it's worth. Damn. I really want to but myself a guitar. I don't want someone to get it for me. But I don't have enough money for a nice one. So when I start working...arg...And even then I won't be able to buy one, I'll have to pay for other things. It's nice.

Well, it's that time of year again. Yep, 1 week before Chritmas, that means HOBO BREAD!! Yay! Oh, man, everyone likes it. It has raisins and nuts in it. Very good. So yea...Anyway, Bob made me feel better. I sorta feel bad about some of my other posts, so Bob, if you read this, please don't read some of the previous ones. Um, they're not that bad, but I don't want you to be mad with me. It was another time and place. Ok, well I rule. I have to finish my homework. Thank the lord for giving me time to do stuff tomorrow. I really didn't feel like practice. It's been rainy and not a good week so far. I need some TS vibes. Allrighty. See you on the flipside.